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Never-ending Story Of Punishment

So I recently had another round of my daughter and me arguing. Well, she argued with me. She is like a broken record. She keeps repeating herself, keeps bringing up all the things that hurt her in the past, keeps bringing up how I did not take her serious back then and so on and on and on.

She did say some very hurtful and disrespectful things…maybe that is her thinking “payback”?! Maybe it is her just lashing out. I couldn’t tell you.

The first few times I felt really bad and cried my eyes out. I apologised so many times, tried to make her understand that it was never my intention to hurt her. I tried to find out what I could do to make it better. I asked her what she wants me to do.

But I did not get anywhere, except from one thing:

I have enough! I apologised and I meant it and I will not have her walk over me over and over again. If she wants to be angry, than by all means. I will just let her be and if she is ready (one day), she knows how to find me.

And while I was at it and decided to not contact her any further, I also de-friended lots of my family members. I know, I know that sounds so childish and maybe it is. But I don’t want people on my social media to snoop around if I don’t have any contact with them so I did what many would have done.

Why Don’t They Tell Me?!?

I just got back from work, went upstairs to get changed and looked in the bathroom mirror. Horror! My mascara was nicely smudged under the eye.

I don’t know for how long that has been. Probably since my last two clients, one of them a two hours respite, the other one hour. After that I stopped at the patrol station and also went into Tesco. So everyone literally got a good eye full.

What the actual f**k?!

Does nowadays no-one has the decency to tell when you look like 5 rounds of boxing???

Not impressed, my friends, so not impressed!

Until the next time…

The Missing Bun (ask for password)

The only time, women are happy to feel sick 24/7 is when they are pregnant!

Almost a year ago I had a very early miscarriage. I didn’t even know I was pregnant…

Forward to the year 2021:

A month ago I started to feel queasy all the time and was drinking so much water, I could have drunk it straight from the hose.

My due date for my period came and passed and I was so happy. All the symptoms where there…..

….until the morning I started to heavily bleed…..

And just like that it was over.

It wasn’t the end of the world as I know that is nature sorting things out, that what could have been a baby wasn’t healthy enough to live just yet.

But I was still sad. Sad because I knew what could have been and said because it took us so long to get to this point! Future husband was sad as well, of course he was.

Everyone who has been trying for some time knows where I am coming from.

Every month you hope it happened but no, shark week is on again. SIGH.

And the fact, that according to my age I only have a 5% chance to get pregnant every month, doesn’t help either.

I already consulted the doctors. The next step is the fertility clinic for check ups.

So fingers crossed, legs open and off to another few rounds of lots of fun.

Until the next time

Yes, You May Have My Password If…

….. if you are really interested in what I have to say!

Sometimes my posts, are funny, sometimes they are not and sometimes you just shake your head in disbelief.

Even though WordPress is an open internet platform where everyone can have a nosy about everyone and everything, I have chosen to have my blog posts on privat for now.

After all this is a free world, right?!

So this will be the only post which does not require a password, for all following ones, all you need to do is ask!

Until the next time…